Biopsy Reveal

19 Mar

Biopsy reveal doesn’t sound nearly as exciting as baby reveal. If you don’t know what I am referring to its because your kids are older than 6. The latest thing with prego moms is to have a “reveal” party, revealing the sex of their baby. As I said this reveal does not hold a candle to that kind of joy and excitement.

I waited a lot today at MD. Waiting is not my forte, but nonetheless I wait. I felt hopeful going into today, but really in the end each day has hope. The results were not encouraging the cancer did not lessen. This took the wind out of my sails, I was flustered. Dr. Garcia-Manera didn’t seem to be discouraged. We started round two of the shots today. We will give another round in hopes that it will begin to work. He reminded me it is a slower acting drug.

As we pray for this drug we need it to kill my aggressive cancer cells. If this drug does not work there is one that is ready to go on trial that is more specific to my genetics, but we are not certain when it will be released.

I am again reminded that this road isn’t easy and that He promises to walk with us. I owe Him all the glory and even today amidst a conflicted heart I long for His glory and His good. I am sad but, the practical me says, one foot in front of the other, He loves you and has given you a purpose for today.

“Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow,
Blessings all mine, with ten thousand beside!”

This song in entirety offers hope, but these words were reassuring for today.

25 Responses to “Biopsy Reveal”

  1. Tara March 19, 2013 at 11:06 pm #

    Love you

  2. Chris in NM March 19, 2013 at 11:07 pm #

    God is sufficient even on the not-so-good news days. They are a reminder that this place we live in is broken and needs redeeming. So glad you are resting in the hands of Him who will come again to take us home. praying for you and sending you hugs-
    Chris and Dave Finnegan

  3. Tina Wilson March 19, 2013 at 11:19 pm #

    You continue to be in our thoughts and prayers!

  4. Vicki Rhodes March 19, 2013 at 11:33 pm #

    You are a constant encouragement and inspiration to all of us. As you said He has each of our lives in His hand and it is for us to put one foot in front of the other to follow Him. Easier said than done for sure.

  5. Angie March 19, 2013 at 11:49 pm #

    Round two: Knock ‘em dead! Praying for you and your family! xoxoxo

  6. Jill March 20, 2013 at 1:02 am #

    Love your insights! Praying for you!

  7. Lesa March 20, 2013 at 6:17 am #

    Praying for you and Adam today.

  8. ace rocke March 20, 2013 at 6:25 am #

    Love you precious gal and praying, trusting our Sovereign God.

  9. Aunt Sue March 20, 2013 at 6:25 am #

    praying for your body and your spirit. So discouraging yet you press on, your new normal ahead of you, being carried by the Father who loves you even more than the rest of us do! Praying for Adam and your precious girls as they anxiously await their visit with you. And for mom and dad as they travel today. Love you sweetie.

  10. Tom Price March 20, 2013 at 7:00 am #

    The cancer did not lessen which also means it did not increase. Round two will deliver the knock out punch. Praying for healing and strength.

  11. Beth O. March 20, 2013 at 7:01 am #

    It is so good to be reminded that the Doctors at the very beginning of this said that this drug is slower acting. You said it. I heard it. Yet, I “forgot” it in the meantime… How my timing is flawed. How HIs timing is perfect. I’m so encouraged that the Doctors are taking this in stride they expected these results and are just continuing on with the plan. So, we, too are reminded to accept this news and go forward. This day. With a thankful heart.

  12. Rachel Whitman March 20, 2013 at 8:17 am #

    You are such an amazing woman. I know that we don’t know each other that well and have had only a few encounters but you are my hero. You are so strong and have an outstanding faith. I am constantly praying for you and your sweet family and I will continue to pray for you all.

  13. Cindy Donze March 20, 2013 at 8:42 am #

    You remind me of Mary Beth Chapman-The title of her book “Choosing to see that God is Good”

  14. Lindsay Atkinson March 20, 2013 at 8:43 am #

    Love that song! Will be singing it all day and thinking of you. We will keep praying, Allie. How does anyone face trials like these, let alone a single day, without a faith in the Lord? He is our ever-present Help! Love you, friend. Praying! Praying! Praying!
    And PS Loved your joke about kids over the age of 6… seriously, how did we miss out on these fun gender reveal parties? No blue filled cupcakes or boxes of pink helium balloons for us. :)

  15. Karen Smith March 20, 2013 at 8:49 am #

    Continued prayers for you and your family. Glad the kids are coming down soon.

  16. Brit W. March 20, 2013 at 9:13 am #

    Hi Al :) I love you. Great is His faithfulness. Awesome song. Praying always.

  17. Lois Ann March 20, 2013 at 9:29 am #

    Love, hugs and prayers from the family. Keep looking for the opportunities, and take advantage of each one. Round one was just the beginning, grab hold of round two and believe in it. Love to you, Adam and the family. Have a wonderful time during their visit.

  18. Ellie March 20, 2013 at 10:31 am #

    I had a dream Monday night that your results would say no change. I prayed all Tuesday that it was not the case. But now I am filled with a sense that He has a purpose in this beyond our ability to envision. Stay strong in our love and prayers.

  19. Erin Sparks March 20, 2013 at 10:45 am #

    Love you Alli- keep fighting!! We won’t stop believing God for miracles on your behalf!!!

  20. Emily March 20, 2013 at 12:06 pm #

    I continue to think of you often and send you a BIG hug and lots of LIGHT and LOVE! Enjoy your sweet family this weekend. xoxo

  21. Denise Ahern March 20, 2013 at 12:16 pm #

    I think and pray for you daily. You are such an inspiration. Stay strong!!!
    love you ,

  22. Tera March 20, 2013 at 1:18 pm #

    Oh dear neighbor and friend,
    Stay strong…..those doctors originally told you to expect a few doses…..hang on while this dosage does the magic ( fingers are crossed). Your dear husband and daughters will be there in a few days and the next few weeks of shots will be history and praying the next bone marrow draw brings positive results. Love ya and praying.,,,,,,

  23. Jodi Tucker March 20, 2013 at 9:26 pm #

    Another praying person piping in! You are one amazing woman of God and I am inspired by your faith in this trial. And I am praying for the destruction of all cancer cells. And praying for His peace to be present with Adam and the girls.

  24. Reba T March 23, 2013 at 9:40 am #

    Praying this song for you, especially these verses…

    Oh love that will not let me go. I rest my weary soul in thee. I give thee back the life I owe that in thine its ocean’s flow my richer, fuller be.

    O Joy that seekest me through pain. I cannot close my heart to thee. I trace the rainbow through the rain and feel the promise is not vain that morn shall tearless be.

    You embody these words in your life. Praying you would feel that Love, not letting you go today.

  25. Jamie Williams March 27, 2013 at 11:30 pm #

    Keep fighting and believing. We continue to pray and think of you often.

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