Day -6

27 Jun

Psalm 143:1,5 &8
” o lord, hear my prayers, listen to my cry for mercy; in your faithfulness and righteousness come to my relief….I remember the days of long ago; I meditate on all your works and consider what your hands have done. I spread out my hands to you; my soul thirsts for you like a parched land….let the morning, bring me word of your unfailing love for I have put my trust in you show me the way I should go for I lift up my soul.”

This scripture really hit home for me in this place. I feel as though I seek His mercy, along with His grace and will. I trust in His faithfulness and righteousness. I often ponder what this road would feel like without my faith in Him and my trust that He hears me when I call. I call out to him throughout my day and night for small bits of His peace and gentleness.

As I reflect and glance out the window at His beautiful artwork I am in awe. I love when talking to Paige about God’s handiwork we can smile and truly enjoy the awesomeness of all
He made: rainbows, mountains, trees and lakes. Nature has always been a way I can easily connect with our Creator.

All my “big girl” years one cry of my heart has been to know Him more, to let my actions and my life bring Him glory. It is something I repeatedly asked of him, and as I look back over the years of my journals it is evident i yearned for this, but struggled to grasp its full meaning. My soul yearns to know Him so well that I can discern His way and His voice above all else. In this moment here I feel He is allowing me to receive glimpses of Him I might have missed. I am challenged to be still, and wait and trust. I long to walk in the way I should go. I trust and hope in His leading each day, even on G110-5.

7 Responses to “Day -6”

  1. Jodi Tucker June 27, 2012 at 11:09 pm #

    Praying the nine fruits of the Spirit for you….especially the first three: Love, Joy, Peace from Him to you.

  2. Alyce Jennings June 28, 2012 at 8:32 am #

    Hi Allison,

    I’ve been reading your blog for a few months and am so encouraged by your response to this illness. I played for Jon and Gina’s wedding – so you don’t even know me – but I am touched by your family. Blessings on you and your family, sister, as you walk this road. May the God of all peace surround you this day.

  3. Aunt Sue June 28, 2012 at 1:14 pm #

    hi sweetie,
    Back from non-sunny Florida and can access blog through Dave’s laptop – check your voice message for my convoluted message about computer issues and the visitation email information!
    I’ve gone back and read the blogs from the time I was away – loved the boat ride one! Not such a fan of all the recipes – I love me some meat and potatoes! :) But through it all, your heart shines through. You are an amaazing woman – I am sure sometimes it doesn’t feel that way and that you feel very much a little girl clinging to her daddy looking for answers. That’s ok too! Not sure what we are all supposed to learn through this journey – I haven’t figured out many of my past journies either – but I just keep pressing on…..trying to be faithful in whatever the ‘new normal’ is for today! Much love and prayers being sent your way.

  4. Sue Davis June 28, 2012 at 8:15 pm #

    You are so strong…there is no doubt in my mind that you are going to beat this. Reading your blog daily has turned into a something I look forward to? Here you are battling this horrible cancer, You are so amazing in the way you are handeling this. I am in awe every time I read it. Thank you for sharing….
    You are always in my thoughts & prayers.

    Sue

  5. MaryAnn McMullen June 28, 2012 at 9:34 pm #

    It’s 9:30 pm, I won’t go to bed without reading what you wrote today:) I am now praying for you to sleep well, feel loved, and feel totally safe in your Father’s arms.

  6. Shelly Vaughn June 28, 2012 at 10:23 pm #

    Allie- if you have really prayed to “let your actions and life bring him glory”, then prayer has been answered. :) There is no doubt, in your reaction to this life-altering disease, that you have shown us all how to live in Him and trust in Him… which must surely bring him glory. You are amazing.

  7. Lillian Stoller June 29, 2012 at 10:53 am #

    Allie, you are an inspiration to me. Right now I am coping with a kidney problem and feeling a little depressed, and then I think of you and pray to God to give me the courage and faith to trust in Him to keep me strong and put everything in His hands. I pray for you every day.
    Lillian Stoller, (Renee Pignotti’s Grandma)

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