“Deliver my soul!”

27 Sep

Psalm 116 is a beautiful Psalm of God’s deliverance. It speaks of how He hears our cries and responds to save, and then moves to how we should respond to that. Off to the left in my margin I wrote these words some time ago in response to vs. 5, which says “gracious is The Lord, and righteous, our God is merciful.” I wrote, “That is what I pray for, mercy. That God would prevent us from suffering Allie’s death.” It is somewhat hard to see your pray so blatantly go unanswered next to a Psalm which starts by proclaiming love for God because He hears our pleas for mercy and responds. But, as I re-read the Psalm I saw something new. In verse three you see the approach of death with all its pain and anguish. Verse 4 reads this way,”Then I called on the name of The Lord: “O Lord, I pray, deliver my soul!” Then vs. 5 praises the character of God who is gracious, righteous, and merciful. That is when I realized The Lord had been and continues to be merciful. He was merciful to Allie and to me in profound ways. God did not preserve Allie physically, her body gave out, but her soul never did. Her soul, the real her, departed her body healthy and in love with Jesus. It was not hardened by bitterness or anger or doubt. God preserved Allie’s faith, He delivered her soul. As for me The Lord has been doing the same, guarding and keeping my faith intact. How can I can I respond to that with anger or bitterness? Both Allie and I can affirm, though in different circumstances the truth of vs. 7.”Return, O my soul, to your rest; for the LORD has dealt bountifully with you.” Allie has reached her final rest, she is at home with The Lord. I will still walk amongst the land of the living, as in vs. 9. But my faith is at rest even now in the person of Jesus Christ, my Lord. For He is gracious and righteous, and merciful and He has dealt bountifully with me.

9 Responses to ““Deliver my soul!””

  1. Aunt Sue September 27, 2013 at 9:52 am #

    Adam, thank you for your heart. Thank you for being so faithful in seeking God’s direction. Thank you for being so in-tune with your Lord that you can look back at this deeply painful journey and still the light of God in your life. Thank you for reminding us that Allie never lost her faith. Yes, her physical body failed her but her faith was intact. As we listened to praise songs playing as she was fading from us, it was a reminder of the importance of her God in her life and her testimony which continues on. Love you so much Adam.

  2. Tracey McCarthy September 27, 2013 at 10:14 am #

    Thank you Adam for your beautiful post. Your faith, and Allie’s, is a great example to us all. XO

  3. Jill September 27, 2013 at 1:11 pm #

    Adam thank you for that touching post. I love how you and Allie so freely and strongly love and trust the Lord and share that in such profound and deep ways. I pray that you may continue to feel His hand and HIs love in your daily life.

  4. Maggie Johns September 27, 2013 at 1:21 pm #

    Amen. Beautiful. Thank you.

  5. Libby (Shaw) Fuller September 27, 2013 at 2:04 pm #

    Adam– you are a bright beacon of light for the Lord Jesus. Your written words make our Lord’s heart leap. Our family prays for you and the girls daily…for continued comfort and peace that only comes from continuing to trust Him. He continues to write your story. He is so faithful. He is so faithful.

  6. Wendy September 27, 2013 at 2:33 pm #

    Thank you Adam for making me realize that truth. I have never really looked at it that way. You are an awesome father and I know you will show those girls God’s unfailing love and that He is truly MERCIFUL ! Thanks Adam

  7. Liz in Austin September 28, 2013 at 11:54 am #

    Dearest Adam, Your faith, thoughts and words are so wonderful and inspiring. Truly, I think of Allie every single day and thank God for bringing her into my life if only for the shortest of time. Too short, I think! Nice to see the smiley faces of your beautiful girls. ALLIE’S STAR SHINES BRIGHT!!

  8. lori habeck September 29, 2013 at 10:31 pm #

    Thanks for the awesome words Adam.

  9. Lesa and family October 2, 2013 at 5:08 am #

    Adam, thank you for continuing to proclaim God’s mercy.

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