It interesting when and how my emotions hit me. I notice it in others and I recognize it in me. In “normal life” I only felt my emotions could change on a dime with my kids, ( you know normal to extreme frustration, or to complete joy from being proud). I am learning that my emotions are connected to me in other ways. Sometimes someone will be emotional when talking to me and I feel strong and certain, and other times i notice I can’t talk because my emotions have caught me by surprise. One thing I continue to learn about myself through this process is that I desire control, yet have none. He is teaching me that He is in control of all things ; even my emotions. It is ok to be sad, or to be overwhelmed by this journey, but I find most often when those thoughts come i ponder His greatness and His faithfulness and I rest in His embrace. Lack of control in and through this journey has allowed me to truly rest with Him and His purpose. So when emotions come, I try to let them come, much to my dismay. Unless of course it is pure joy.
1 Thessalonians 5:16 ” rejoice evermore”
Today we ended our day with some of our favorites, gracie and Quinn…mom’s played while daddy’s worked on deck!