It’s me

12 Aug

I know you have not heard from me in the past few weeks. Thankfully once getting home from Michigan things have improved. I am tired come the end of the day. I am working hard at putting my energy into my family. At this time we have chosen to forgo any more research drugs, mostly because if the drug were to work I would still not be cured and would need to undergo another transplant. At this juncture we realize my body cannot take more chemo. My organs are working fine but are compromised greatly from all my treatments over the last year and half.

This is in hard decision yet allows me to be present with my family in the weeks ahead. The doctors seem to feel my disease is quite aggressive as we have already seen. They feel my time is limited. This is a lot to process. Even though we know death is the end of this disease it doesn’t make the process any easier. The greatest thing is I have hope. The hardest thing is I have three beautiful children and a husband that I want to do life with. I praise Him for each day and ask for more time. I continue to need blood transfusions twice a week. My energy level is low for me. I am still functioning, yes even driving. My ability to “do” for my family is minimal which is the most frustrating thing for me. I sit a lot, hence I have a very sore bum. My mind is at peace most of the time. Knowing this is not in my control.

I still pray for a miracle, but I also pray for my sweet family. This has affected a wide circle of my community. I am blessed by your love and support. As to visitors, I am protecting my time but if I can see you I will. Thank you for your prayers for all of us.

But I am not ashamed, for I know whom I have believed, and I am convinced that he is able to guard until that Day what has been entrusted to me. (2 Timothy 1:12 ESV)

105 Responses to “It’s me”

  1. Laurie August 12, 2013 at 9:47 pm #

    That is by far one of the most beautiful things I have ever read. Your strength has been an inspiration to everyone and will carry on through others.

  2. Brit w August 12, 2013 at 10:08 pm #

    I love you allie. Praying for miracles too. Thanks for taking the time to update-it is good to hear from you. Xoxo

  3. Sue Davis August 12, 2013 at 10:25 pm #

    I have been reading your blog since the beginning. It is a story that I don’t want to end. Your gift of writing, your incredible strength, your faith have become and inspiration for so many. You have obviously touched so many people through your journey. I am happy to hear you are home & enjoying your family, with a peaceful mind.

    Thoughts & Prayers

  4. Kerri August 12, 2013 at 10:26 pm #

    Allie no words can express the emotions I feel for you and your family. Your trust in our Lord brings my heart such joy! I have and will continue to pray for you, Adam and the girls as you continue to run this race with perseverance and such grace! Love to you all! In His amazing love.

  5. lori habeck August 12, 2013 at 10:28 pm #

    Allie…you continue to amaze and inspire me with your dependence on God and positive outlook. Happy that you are with your sweet family now. Love you….

  6. Aunt Sue August 12, 2013 at 10:41 pm #

    my precious niece – I am so incredibly proud of you. You are a magnificent example of one who has faith and trust in a God who can heal or a God who can choose to take. Your family watches you each day with the knowledge of how frail life truly is and yet we are the ones encouraged by you. May you take each day as the gift it truly is – it is that gift we all must accept – for our days are all numbered. Praying as you love on your family, as you gird yourself for the continued battle and that you would feel the love and prayers of so many who love you.

  7. Theresa August 12, 2013 at 10:47 pm #

    Allie, Army-
    We love you. We pray daily for a miracle. Thank you for trusting and sharing your faith in a sovereign God.
    Peace be with you…. The Davis’

  8. Ellen Patrino August 12, 2013 at 10:51 pm #

    Hi Allie. So glad to hear from you. The first thing I do I the morning is look at your blog and the last thing I do is look before going to bed. You are. The most amazing woman I have ever met. We continue to pray for all of you and we are so happy you are spending quality time with your family. Love yo. Sleep well tonight. Sweet dreams

  9. Kelly Weatherwax August 12, 2013 at 10:52 pm #

    Allie – you are an amazing woman of God who I will forever hold in a special place in my heart. I know we have never gotten to know each other on a deeper level – but I have been able to get to know that you are the remarkable person you are through this blog. I pray that my faith can be at least half of what yours is! I pray God continues to challenge me in my own life to know His love and never question it. I pray for you, for a miracle. I pray for your family, that you will breathe in every second you have with them. I pray for your friends, that even tho you can’t be with each of them that they will feel your love and presence with them. Stay beautiful, Allie. You are loved!

  10. Sarah K August 12, 2013 at 11:01 pm #

    We are indeed asking God for a miracle dear Allie…so thankful for the hope we have in Christ. You have glorified His name through this very tough journey…praying for you guys.

  11. Jill August 12, 2013 at 11:18 pm #

    What a touching and tender post tonight. You are an amazing woman of God! I pray that whatever time you are blessed with may be full and fulfilling for you and your sweet family. I also pray for health and strength for your body and the continued miracles he has allowed you to be a part of. We are sending our love and prayers your way.

  12. Merrily August 12, 2013 at 11:39 pm #

    Dear Allie,
    I have only met you briefly a few times, but you and your family have continued to be in our prayers. We were praying for you in our women’s prayer group today. You are continually an inspiration. I cannot imagine how difficult this journey is, but you and your family are sharing in Christ’s sufferings, which is an honor, but so difficult, and you have endured it so gracefully. Should the Lord bring you home, there is only peace waiting for you, but we also believe in His amazing power and that He is a God who still heals and still does miracles today. He is all we have, and thank goodness, because He is the only one who can heal and the only one who can provide peace that surpasses any understanding we think we should have of this life. We will continue to pray for peace, joy, and healing in the midst of this trial. May God give you and your family strength. He created an amazing woman when He created you…it is no wonder that He may want to bring you home to Him. But we will continue to pray for miracles only He can do. God bless you and your family, Allie.

  13. Janeanne August 13, 2013 at 12:31 am #

    Dear Allie,

    You are such a gift and an inspiration. I pray for your strength and comfort. I am glad to hear you are home spending time with your precous family.
    Peace and Love,
    Janeanne

  14. Shelagh Hughes August 13, 2013 at 12:51 am #

    You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you. Isaiah 26:3

    And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7

    Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ Romans 5:1

    Lord, you establish peace for us; all that we have accomplished you have done for us. Isaiah 26:12

    Allie & family,
    The word peace from your entry is resonating with me…There is so much comfort, serenity, and hope in this one little word. How can we have any peace in this world without being connected to the Giver of Peace, the Father of Peace, the Prince of Peace…Jesus.
    Jesus knew we would face all kinds of hardships and pain in this lifetime. I love that He reminds us to “take heart” and remember that He has overcome the world. He loves us so much that He reminds us in scripture that He knows the trouble we will face, and yet~ no worries, I’ve got this one too, I overcame it all…Our worst day on earth with Jesus as our Lord, is far better than any best day on earth without Him.
    Paul lovingly refers to God as the “God of peace” in his letter to the Romans. We are made in His image and given a helper, His Holy Spirit; we can experience genuine peace that only comes from our relationship with Him.
    Allie, it brings all our hearts such joy and comfort to hear you speak of this peace that God has given you. It is also heart breaking to know that there is physical pain and agony that keeps you from doing the things you want to be able to do as a mother, wife, daughter, and friend to many. Tonight I am so grateful for the peace that far outweighs any hardships we face.

    What a friend we have in Jesus, we love you Lord!

    May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15:13

  15. Erin Burtoft August 13, 2013 at 6:01 am #

    Thank you for the update on spite of your fatigue. I’m sure it took a lot of physical and emotional energy to write this post. Please know I am praying for you, each daughter by name, your husband, and everyone close to you as you all process and somehow journey this unfair road. May God bless this time with your family.

  16. megan williams August 13, 2013 at 7:12 am #

    Thank you for being you. Thank you for being such a inspiration. Thank you for being a leader.

  17. Vicki August 13, 2013 at 7:23 am #

    Thank you for your continued inspiration. You are an amazing person. Love You.

  18. Shirley Kiernan August 13, 2013 at 7:49 am #

    Your journey has and continues to be an inspiration to us all. Thank you for sharing your faith with us.

  19. Amy V August 13, 2013 at 8:05 am #

    Dear, sweet, Allie,
    What great joy you exude — your walk with the Lord is beautiful — I am one of MANY who has heard of you and has been praying without ceasing for you. You continue to touch my life and others in profound ways, showing us Christ. It is a tremendous blessing to see you rejoice in the Lord always, to persevere through great trial, and to set your eyes on Christ — the author and perfecter of our faith. I am continually praying for a miracle in your life. However, I trust, like you in the one Who holds our time in His hands. Praying for your strength and encouragement. As you walk forward, “He has given us His very great and precious promises.” (II Peter 1:4) — Continue to cling on Him. Praying MUCH for you!
    Your Sister in Christ,
    Amy

  20. Pam August 13, 2013 at 8:20 am #

    Rejoice always,
    Pray continually,
    Give thanks in all circumstances;
    For this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. I Thessalonians 5: 16-18

    Be joyful in hope,
    Patient in affliction,
    Faithful in prayer. Romans 12: 12

    Father,
    Glory and Praise to You for Allie’s life, a joyful life. Please set things straight inside her physical body in order that she might continue to live here with us and proclaim
    Your Name; use her to draw more people yet unto Yourself. You are a Mighty and Holy God and we ask this in the Name of the Lord Jesus Christ. Amen

  21. Susie Smith August 13, 2013 at 9:15 am #

    Dear Sweet, Beautiful Allie,

    You are such an inspiration to so many people and God is so very proud of you for your faithfulness in Him, especially through such troubling times.

    You know how much He loves you and that He has your back … and you know that His plan for you and your family is a part of the BIG picture … a picture that we cannot even begin to imagine.

    Continue to rest in His arms and He will show you a great miracle, whether it be here or there with Him.

    May God’s Peace & Love assure you that you are exactly where you are supposed to be in His eternal life.

    Hugs,

  22. Myra August 13, 2013 at 9:30 am #

    Dear Allie,

    Continuing to pray for a miracle! Thanks for reminding us all how precious and temporary all our lives are, and to entrust ourselves into His care and plan.

    Philippians 4:6-7″….And the peace of God which surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”

    Love and blessings,
    Myra

  23. Wendy August 13, 2013 at 9:51 am #

    Allie, I love you and am still praying for a miracle. God is certainly in charge . I pray for Adam and the girls and your family. God Bless you Allie, Ilove you, Wendy

  24. Tracy August 13, 2013 at 9:58 am #

    Praying for your miracle to happen and your family.

  25. Ellen Johnston August 13, 2013 at 9:59 am #

    praying for your family. praying for the miracle. trusting in the One who made you.

  26. Crystal Hurte August 13, 2013 at 10:05 am #

    Allie,

    In a hundred lifetimes I could never acquire the strength and beauty that is yours. Never doubt that your faith, courage and heart has reached depths that only one with true grace could reach. No one has met you who will not be the better for it. The world and all of us in it thank you for allowing us to be a part of your life.

  27. Cousin Pat Shepard August 13, 2013 at 10:17 am #

    Allie, You are such a wonderful example to each of us. We’re continuing to pray for you and the family. Your strength is such a testimony to your faith in Him. Love you immensely. Cousins Pat & Bud

  28. ace rocke August 13, 2013 at 11:04 am #

    Ahhh, Allie. We continue to present you and your family to our Father. You have put your trust and confidence in the only One every one of us must. The Rocke’s love you and your family very much.

  29. Rob Norman August 13, 2013 at 11:05 am #

    Hey Friend,

    Love you guys. Let us know if we can watch the girls to give you guys some time alone. Thinking of you guys often

  30. Jodi Tucker August 13, 2013 at 11:17 am #

    Allie, I echo the sentiments of many. Your faith affects so many for His honor and glory. I continue to pray for a miracle and will pray for peace for Adam, Haleigh, Paige and Mollie.
    Love in Jesus.

  31. Dee Curry August 13, 2013 at 11:26 am #

    God bless you and your family, We are all better people for knowing you. That is a very beautiful post! Your faith is an inspiration. Take care. Love, Dee

  32. Marcia Case August 13, 2013 at 11:46 am #

    Allie:

    So strong and courageous. Praying for you, Adam, your beautiful daughters, your Mom and Dad.

    And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
    Phillipians 4:7

  33. Tiffany Toms August 13, 2013 at 11:49 am #

    You are truly amazing. My own fears of the of what’s next for me keep me awake at night. And here you stand with such faith and bravery. I am in awe of your courage and light, even in what can be seen as the darkest of times. I continue to pray for a miracle and ease of time spent with your beatiful family and circle of friends.

  34. Kara Figueroa August 13, 2013 at 12:01 pm #

    Allie, you are so beautiful! Everything about you! Your faith is astonishing and such an inspiration. Thank you for allowing us all to walk beside you in this journey and for showing us Jesus through that walk. You are such a blessing!

    Love and prayers,

    Kara (Mathies) Figueroa

  35. Liz in Austin August 13, 2013 at 12:09 pm #

    Dearest Allie, I too must read your blog morning and evening in hopes that miracle has occurred. Jim and I constantly pray for you, Adam and your beautiful girls. Rest well, Beautiful Friend. That miracle is just around the corner.
    Much Love and Hugs!
    Liz

  36. Jessica August 13, 2013 at 12:14 pm #

    I wish we were friends Allie. I don’t know you, but know well enough that you are an amazing woman. Reading your posts puts a lot in perspective for me. It’s easy to get caught up in the daily annoyances that we all go through.. You have really made me wake up and appreciate all of the little things in life and brush off the stuff that just doesn’t matter.. I will pray for a miracle & that you get to spend all of your time enjoying your cute little family. Your unending faith is such an inspiration!

  37. Monica Moore August 13, 2013 at 12:24 pm #

    As a Mom, I am praying for you as I would want someone to pray for me. As a believer, I am praying for peace that passes understanding to consume you and your entire family. You are covered in prayers. You are loved by many who haven’t met you, but the greatest love is that of your Father. Be embraced by His arms.

  38. Lyndsey August 13, 2013 at 1:29 pm #

    It’s me, I know you don’t see comments from me much, but friend I have been praying for you and your family for a long time. Your strength and courage has strengthen me and I am honor to call you a friend.

    I will never stop praying
    Lyndsey

  39. Chanda and Josh Davies August 13, 2013 at 1:40 pm #

    I am sitting here trying to type and tears are rolling down my face. I hope you know what a gift you are in our lives. We feel grateful that you are our friend! There are so many lessons in the life that I feel I have learned either from you or with you, but most recently the ability to “seize the day” comes to mind! I appreciate that you and Adam have shared your journey and trust that your faith and love has helped to carry you. We love you all and are comforted by your words! Make the most of each day as I know you do!!!

    Love,
    The Davies Family

  40. Ashleigh Johnson August 13, 2013 at 1:53 pm #

    Your family has been such a testimony and a challenge to let our lights shine in any and every circumstance! Thank you for being such an example of faithfulness to our King! Praying for all 5 of you. May God’s grace and peace continue to guard your heart and mind! Much love, Scott and Ashleigh

  41. Lindsay Atkinson August 13, 2013 at 2:24 pm #

    Oh Allie, It was so good to “hear” from you! Tears even before I started reading. :) Thank you for taking some time to share from your heart. We won’t stop praying! Love you, friend!

  42. Don Hoover August 13, 2013 at 3:04 pm #

    Dear Allison, My wife Fran and I have been reading your messages and have been praying for you and your family. I remember you as a very pretty young girl full of energy very much like your dear Mother. What a strong love you have shown and testimony you have been for the Lord through all of this. If we understood all the things that happen to us and our loved ones, where would faith enter into our lives. And so it is, that God asks us only to trust Him in all things…. and that sometimes is very hard and sometimes pushes our faith to its limits.Very few know or understand what you and your family are going through. But, you are an encouragement for all of us, including your closet family members, to trust the Father in all things….in all things. Thank you for your faithfulness which gives Light to all of us who pray for you and your family.

  43. Amber Norman August 13, 2013 at 3:20 pm #

    Dear Allie,
    It’s so hard to know what to say to that. I also know nothing I say makes this situation easier or less sad. Clearly you are an amazing person. I didn’t know you very long before this disease attacked you but thought you were pretty cool the day we met I took one of your fitness classes that completely kicked my butt! I was so excited when you told me about the ABF you and Adam were starting because I knew it was going to be led by real and genuine people that love the Lord. Your journey has made me really think about what I believe and why. And understand and cling to the fact that God is sovereign and in control. We live in a sinful fallen world and because of that, we have cancer. It just really saddens me cancer found you. I believe that God can do anything including a miracle to heal you completely but he may not choose that for His reasons that are perfect. Faith has to be stretched to say that but that’s what we have to rely on. I love you and your family and will be praying for all of you continually.
    Love,
    Amber

  44. Jennifer Deveney August 13, 2013 at 3:29 pm #

    Allie, Thank you for living out your calling every single day in spite of your circumstances. Thank you for being a beautiful, strong, faith filled warrior. Your legacy is beautiful and is displayed through all who know & love you. Thankful that you & I serve a God Who knows what our next day brings & has the last word. I’m believing for you and in Him! “Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.” (Psalm 139:16 NIV)
    We will hold you, Adam & your 3 beautiful girls in our prayers always.

  45. Ryan and Rachel Privett August 13, 2013 at 3:45 pm #

    Allie,

    Please know that you and Adam and the girls have never been far from our thoughts and prayers over the last year and a half. As many others have said … you are an inspiration. You have touched our lives and your words make us stop and think about life, what is important and our own faith. We are praying!!

    With love,
    Ryan and Rachel

  46. Adam Barton August 13, 2013 at 3:47 pm #

    Allie,
    You have set the ultimate standard of courage and love for so many to watch an learn from…including myself and my family. We are wiser because of you. Our kids will be wiser because of you. You have shown a community how to face life’s ultimate challenge and mystery.

    We pray deeply for you and your family.
    Keep showing us how to live.

    “Dear Lord, be near this family and show yourself to them in a mighty and unforgetable way”.

    Adam

  47. Laurie Perduyn August 13, 2013 at 4:47 pm #

    Dear Allie,

    You have touched my life and not a day goes by that I don’t mention your strength and “no waiver” faith in conversation. You are loved and an inspiration to all!

    The Weaver
    My life is but a weaving Between my Lord and me;
    I cannot choose the colours, He worketh steadily.
    Oft-times He weaveth sorrow,
    And I, in foolish pride
    forget He sees the upper,
    And I the under side.
    Not till the loom is silent
    And the shuttles cease to fly,
    Shall God unroll the canvas
    And explain the reason why.
    The dark threads are as needful,
    In the Weaver’s skillful hand,
    As the threads of gold and silver
    In the pattern he has planned.
    He knows, He loves, He cares -
    Nothing this truth can dim;
    He gives the very best to those
    Who leave the choice with Him.

  48. Vicki Rhodes August 13, 2013 at 4:50 pm #

    Praying for you and your family and asking for a miracle so that you can stay with us a little longer. Thanks for the encouragement you give to those of us who are not as strong as you. Thanks for the verses you share as well. Today’s verse is one of my favorites and sums up the trust and assurance we have in our Creator who keeps His promises.

  49. Tim & Kristi Hardin August 13, 2013 at 5:08 pm #

    Allie,

    Dave has kept us updated on everything; I can see that he loves his sister more than you’ll ever know. You are a blessing and testament to him and Jessica, as you are to us, through your positive, loving and courageous outlook on your faithful life.

    May your time with your family be filled with laughter, overflowing abundant love and a gracious peace from God. You and your family are in our prayers.

    Tim & Kristi Hardin

  50. Jamie Williams August 13, 2013 at 6:01 pm #

    Allie,
    You are the most amazing woman I’ve ever met. I love you and our many conversations are always a joy to reflect on. You have encouraged me with regard to my faith and I want to you that you are the best example that anyone could ever, ever have. I also know that because of you that God’s plan is already made for each of us and we need to trust that plan. While my heart is shattered, you some how manage to exemplify hope even under the darkest of circumstances. I will most certainly spend the rest of my days, in your honor, making sure that I think long and hard about the wonderful things you’ve made me think about since we’ve met. I will not stop praying for the miracle. You should know that you’ve made an impact on me, and my life– and you’ve given me the strength to move forward and accept things that I can not change by simply trusting God’s plan. I’m certain though that I have not done it with your dignity, grace or courage, but I am trying. :)

    Hang in there my dear lady and fight with all you’ve got.
    XOXO
    Jamie

  51. cindy August 13, 2013 at 6:11 pm #

    You are salt and light to a world that needs to know that we serve a good God.

  52. Jan August 13, 2013 at 6:48 pm #

    I am at work and praying for you as always. Dance for Jesus! love ya

  53. Brad August 13, 2013 at 7:18 pm #

    Allie;

    God love you! It is truly amazing how your faith has touch so many lifes. I have shared your story with some of my work colleagues. One is Kathy, who has defeated cancer! Miracles do happen! To Bryan, whose wife defeated cancer recently. Miracles do happen! To Mark, who has placed your name on his church pray list in Illinois. Finally to Glen, who with is family has moved to Brazil in the past month and who is prying for you! So as you can read, your touching people from all points of the world with your faith. You are a miracle!

    Love you bunches! God Bless and Peace!

  54. Beckie August 13, 2013 at 7:49 pm #

    Allie, you are my one in a million!

  55. Maggie Johns August 13, 2013 at 8:29 pm #

    Allie and Adam, there are just no words. My heart is sad. We love you two. Prayers never ceasing.

  56. Connie O'Brien August 13, 2013 at 8:47 pm #

    Thanks for the update. Praying for you.

  57. Steve & Lisa Cochrane August 13, 2013 at 8:54 pm #

    Praying….

  58. Chuck Gough August 13, 2013 at 9:00 pm #

    Allie, For the few brief years we have known one another I will have been affected for a life time. Your faith, Love, Kindness and soul have gone into each and everyone of your posts. I had dreaded a day that I would read a post as this. I will continue to pray for you and your family. A friend of mine asked me if there is really a God then why does God let bad thing happen to such good people. I simply responded to him that I don’t know for sure but could speculate that is it through people like you that God’s loves shines down on all those around. Allie you have illuminated so many people and walked this journey with Gods grace at all times. You have touched my soul in a very difficult time of my life. For having known you I am a better person.

    I once was lost but now am found, was blind but now I see.

    Tis grace has brought me safe thus far And grace will lead me home.

    We’ve no less days to sing God’s praise Than when
    Than when we’ve first begun.

    And grace will lead me home.

  59. shirley clark August 13, 2013 at 9:06 pm #

    So good to hear from you. You are amazing. I thank my God upon every remembrance of you and I remember you often to our loving heavenly Father.

  60. Nikki Nicholson August 13, 2013 at 9:48 pm #

    Allie,

    You and your gorgeous family are in our thoughts and prayers. You are such an amazing mother, wife and woman it knocks me speechless. To say you all are an inspiration is an understatement of epic proportions…all the blessing in the world to you and your family, your beautiful girls have your sparkle:)

  61. Kate Detweiler August 13, 2013 at 9:51 pm #

    How sweet it will be for you to hear “well done, good and faithful servant”. Praying still.

  62. Joanna Hollister August 13, 2013 at 10:03 pm #

    I wish I knew you better, but I’ll never forget meeting you right before the babies were born.. You’re so brave to share this journey. Sending our best wishes onto you, everyday.

  63. Greta August 13, 2013 at 10:16 pm #

    Hi Allie,

    I’ve been tracking your progress via your blog and want to thank you for bringing us along for the ride – though I’m sure that’s hard at times. I think your decision is a courageous one, yet I expect nothing less from you. We got to know one another over such a short period of time…and I feel like I got to know YOU. The you at the gym is the same you in this blog. I can’t say that about everyone I know – to always be your authentic self – what a gift.

    Sending loads of positive thoughts from Philly. :)

    - Greta

  64. Kendra P August 13, 2013 at 10:24 pm #

    Tears fill my eyes for you and your family, Allie. Tears of sadness. Tears of joy because of the great hope you evidently display. Your girls have surely learned more from you about being an incredible woman of God already than most women will ever learn from their mom in a lifetime. They are so blessed to have you and Adam leading them on this journey. I can only imagine how much of you is in each of them. What precious girls they must be! You have not ceased to amaze me each time you write. Your finger is pointed to Jesus, not to yourself, your struggle, your fear, or your sadness. What an example you’ve left each of us with. Thank you, friend. Prayed for you tonight and will continue to pray for precious time in the days ahead.

  65. Vanessa Schmidt August 13, 2013 at 10:30 pm #

    Allie,

    Thank you so much for blogging. You have such an incredible story and are such a strong woman of the Lord. You are an inspiration to all. I continue to pray for you and your family.

  66. Carrie Lee August 13, 2013 at 11:15 pm #

    Thanking the Lord today for creating such an amazing-inspiring woman of God like yourself.I have only met you a few times your radiance and resemblance to Christ are so aw inspiring..We will continue to pray for you and your family
    Love, Carrie Lee

  67. Greg Stanley August 13, 2013 at 11:41 pm #

    Thank you Allie & Army,
    You have both always been greet examples to me from distance but always close to my heart. Praying for you and your family!

  68. Tracey August 13, 2013 at 11:50 pm #

    Dearest Allie,

    Wow, just wow. It’s taken me until now to try and wrap my head around this. I can’t say anything that hasn’t already been said here in these comments. This news makes me so sad, and yet I’m happy to know you are at peace and surrounded by the love of your family. Thank you for sharing your journey with us through your blog. You’ve touched more people than you know with your grace and faith.

    I want you to know that having you and Adam in our home that summer just after you got married was a really special blessing for us. We loved having you here, and we treasure the gift of your friendship. I’m sorry that I haven’t done a better job of staying in touch through the years, but I hope you know I’ve always held you close in my heart.

    I’ll be praying for all of you. God bless. XO

  69. Lydia's Mom August 13, 2013 at 11:52 pm #

    Hi! We saw the girls at Chickfila tonight and Lydia and Hayleigh hugged immediately upon seeing one another. :) Lydia and I pray for you each night after her bedtime devotions. Lifting you all up and believing for strength, hope and peace. Knowing you and your girls makes me cherish every moment I have with my children. I didn’t complain once this summer about having them home all the time. LOL. I’m also not in any hurry to send them back to school, either. :) When Lydia asks me to read a book or to get cozy with her, I don’t say, “not right now” anymore. :) Thank you for your perspective and for being real.

  70. Amy Mucha August 14, 2013 at 12:22 am #

    Oh dearest Allie. I love you so very much, and will be praying for that miracle for you and your sweet family.

  71. Holly Gambill August 14, 2013 at 1:46 am #

    I don’t know the Armstrongs, but I do know a mutual friend who had a complete cure from very aggressive cancer using Vit.B 17. This young woman also had a family depending on her and had exhausted all conventional treatments. She also has MS, so her body was dealing with a double challenge. I don’t know if the Armstrongs read all the comments, but if someone who knows them would refer them to this website, they can read all about her healing.

    Sandi Rog, the author of this blog, and the cancer survivor is not some “quack.” She, too, had She is a published author and a woman of great faith. I pray this may give some hope and pray for healing for Allie also.

    Here is the link: http://beatcancerwithb17.blogspot.com/

    You can read all about her story and see the book(s) she has published by finding her on Google. Blessings to the Armstrong family and I pray for them!!

  72. Linda Davis August 14, 2013 at 3:03 am #

    Dearest Allie,
    What A Shining Testimony You Are And Have
    Been In This Journey! God’s Love Surrounds You!
    Thank You For Standing Strong And Sharing Your
    Faith And Love For Our Lord In The Most Difficult
    Of Circumstances. You And Your Precious Family
    Will Remain In My Prayers.
    Psalm 31:15-16…”My Times Are In Your Hand…
    Make Your Face To Shine Upon Your Servant, (Allison).

    Number 6:24-26…”The Lord Bless You And Keep You.
    The Lord Make His Face Shine Upon You And Be
    Gracious Unto You. The Lord Lift Up His Countenance
    Upon You And Give You Peace.”

  73. Donna Usher August 14, 2013 at 9:47 am #

    Our dear Allie,
    I know the energy it takes to keep all of those that love you and your family informed . You have an incredible gift to allow others peace and understanding as you struggle , yet never complain.
    The day you and your family became part of ours, it changed me forever. Love you sweet girl, donna

  74. Julie August 14, 2013 at 10:15 am #

    Allie – you certainly let your light shine and I’d bet you’ve helped to strengthen the faith and belief in Jesus of hundreds of people. We continue to pray for you every night and lift up you and your family. There is no doubt that the God who holds the universe holds you in his arms. It’s not fair that you have to go through this, and you’ve handled it so gracefully… such a woman of God. We love you! Thanks for the update.
    Brent & Julie

  75. Gina Y August 14, 2013 at 10:25 am #

    Just reading all of the comments says it all-You have been and are an inspiration to so many. Who can know the plans of God? I’m sure we would all make different choices if we did and you have chosen to tap into His peace and hope. This has been a rough ride but you have stayed on the right track with your seat belt firmly fastened by the One who is in the driver’s seat. Thank you for encouraging me and being an example of keeping your focus on the important things in this life. Love you and your family and will continue to pray for His will in your life. You are a special lady!!

  76. Tim August 14, 2013 at 10:45 am #

    Allie, I will always remember the day Tracey and I met you and Adam. We knew immediately that you were perfect for each other. You both have such a positive outlook on life, and such strong and confident faith. This journey has surely tested you two over and over, and yet here you both are, still focusing on the positive and putting your trust and faith in God’s hands. You are great role models for a life well lived. Tracey and I are praying for you two, and your beautiful daughters. We love you and admire you.

  77. Becky and Josh August 14, 2013 at 12:13 pm #

    Allie and Adam,

    I’m sitting in the cafeteria at the Mays clinic at MD as Becky is upstairs getting a pet scan.
    She is doing great and checks your blog several times a day.
    I can’t help but think about you both in this place. Becky and I are so blessed to have met
    you. I am now grateful someone pulled that fire alarm and sent us to meet in the hotel lobby.

    I have told countless people about your blog, and I know it ministers to all affected by these horrible diseases.

    I will continue to pray for a miracle, but I want you to know that Becky and I love you.

    God knew exactly what He was doing when our two stories intersected.

    God Bless you and your girls

  78. Rachel August 14, 2013 at 12:28 pm #

    Allie and Army,

    What a beautiful faith you have. You are such a great example of walking by faith; not by sight. You have pointed so many to the Lord by praising him, and finding your strength and peace in Him. I am praying praying praying for you both and for your three girls.
    -Rachel (Smith) Vanderground

  79. Kelly Turner August 14, 2013 at 12:38 pm #

    Dear Allie and Family,
    Thanks for sharing and opening your hearts to so many! I wanted to share an old but beautiful song by Wayne Watson that says it all. If I could sing it I would but don’t think I could get through it anyway.

    Peace to all of you.

    HOME FREE by Wayne Watson

    I’m trying hard not to think You unkind
    But Heavenly Father
    If You know my heart
    Surely You can read my mind

    Good people underneath the sea of grief
    Some get up and walk away
    Some will find ultimate relief

    Home free, eventually
    At the ultimate healing
    We will be home free

    Home free, oh I’ve got a feeling
    At the ultimate healing
    We will be home free

    Out in the corridors, we pray for life
    A mother for her baby
    A husband for his wife
    Sometimes the good die young

    It’s sad but true
    And while we pray for one more heartbeat
    The real comfort is with You

    You know pain has little mercy
    And suffering’s no respecter of age
    Of race or position

    I know every prayer gets answered
    But the hardest one to pray is slow to come
    Oh Lord, not mine, but Thy will be done

    Let it be

    Home free, eventually
    At the ultimate healing
    We will be home free

    Home free, oh I’ve got a feeling
    At the ultimate healing
    We will be home free

    Home free, eventually
    At the ultimate healing
    Gonna be home free

    Home free, oh its more than a feeling
    At the ultimate healing
    Gonna be home free

    Songwriters
    HOOK, PETER/GILBERT, GILLIAN LESLEY/MORRIS, STEPHEN PAUL DAVID/SUMNER, BERNARD (GB 2)

    Read more: Wayne Watson – Home Free Lyrics | MetroLyrics

  80. Anne (McCartney) Tucker August 14, 2013 at 2:51 pm #

    Words keep seeming to fail me as I ponder what to post and how to convey my feelings. But then I realize that is part of the beauty of the power of pray; we don’t always have to have the words. So in this moment I pray for your comfort, peace and of course for your beautiful family.

  81. Heather Weitzel August 14, 2013 at 2:54 pm #

    Allie,

    I’m grateful that I received a gift for personal training classes years ago, I met you. You are a beautiful and remarkable woman. I will pray for a miracle and continue to pray your family and His will. Bless you sweet friend. ~Heather

  82. Jen (Siegferth) Verde August 14, 2013 at 4:18 pm #

    Allie,
    I want to express to you again what an inspiration you are, a true angel on earth. Your strength and unwavering faith in our Lord is something we all aspire to have. We are better people and truely blessed because you have touched our lives in so many memorable ways. We all continue to pray for you, your health, and your beautiful family. May God continue to wrap his loving arms around you through this journey. You are a special gift to all of us, please know that you are loved.

  83. Emily Holody :) August 14, 2013 at 5:38 pm #

    I have the same thoughts and feelings as Anne Tucker. I have tried to type something to you for the last few days but nothing seems to come to me as I stare at the computer. But in those moments when I struggle to think of what to write I think of just how amazing you are. I think about how darling your girls are, how strong and dedicated your family is, I think of your sweet husband, and your parents, I sit and I think of you. In those moments I send light and love to all of you. You have taught me so much through all of what you have shared on this journey. Thank you for being so brave but also know if there are moments when you feel not so brave I and LOTS of others are sending you hugs, and thoughts of peace and healing. A memory comes to me when I think of you…a few years ago I ran into you at my favorite place the Peninsula Farmers Market. I had just had Mae and was sleep deprived and running around like a crazy person…I remember you going out of your way to speak to me…I had not seen you in some time and I was confused and did I mention sleep deprived and for a moment I couldn’t figure out who you were but I remember looking to your girls and to Adam and thinking who is this lovely lady with this wonderful family hugging me and speaking so kindly! hahaha Then of course I realized it was you but even before I realized it I realized how amazingly adorable and kind you all were. :) I think of that morning and smile sometimes. Sending you a BIG warm hug. xo

  84. marian August 14, 2013 at 9:06 pm #

    Allie – I love you so much and am so blessed that God put us together. I continue to pray for a miracle and strive to find the deep faith that you possess. Hugs and kisses from all the Stofsick’s.

  85. Lesa and family August 14, 2013 at 9:34 pm #

    Hello, Allie.

    Reading your entry…the many replies…the bond of eternal family in Christ is so evident.

    We hold this treasure in earthen vessels, for now…don’t we?

    “We now have this light shining in our hearts, but we ourselves are like fragile clay jars containing this great treasure. This makes it clear that our great power is from God, not from ourselves.”

    Your bright light is inspiring many people to trust In God’s love and faithfulness as you and Adam do.

    The DiPaolos love you. And we pray for a miracle.

  86. Danielle Knepp August 14, 2013 at 9:47 pm #

    You know, I think if I were in your shoes, I’d find all the reasons to be sad and would feel so lost. You’ve been incredibly, even heroically, strong throughout this entire ordeal. That is amazing in and of itself. I couldn’t imagine having the prognosis you’ve been given. But, I must admit, your journey has reminded me that it’s not about us or our feelings of the matter at hand. Rather, it’s embracing the time we do have, loving with our hearts open, and putting out best foot forward. Remembering God is our Creator and the One we live for. I’m so sorry that you’ve gone through this. I’m so sorry that there isn’t a better outcome. Even with that all said, I don’t know how you handle things with such grace and certainty. I love you. I continue to pray for you. God Bless.

  87. Katie Truax August 14, 2013 at 10:56 pm #

    Hi my friend,
    I know you love music. And it’s something I treasure about you and Tana. Tonight I’m listening to Hillsong’s Glorious Ruins song, and on my knees praying for you, your family. As I pray, I take in the lyrics. They are a beautiful reflection of how I believe you live out your faith…
    I’ll walk through the fire
    With my head lifted high
    And my spirit revived in Your story
    And I’ll look to the cross
    As my failure is lost
    In the light of your glorious grace

    And my soul will find refuge
    In the shadow of Your wings
    I will love You forever
    And forever I’ll sing

    When the world caves in
    Still my hope will cling to Your promise
    Where my courage ends
    Let my heart find strength in Your presence
    In the light of Your glorious grace
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?list=RD39jv2jJkRe59Q&v=jv2jJkRe59Q

    “And my spirit revived in YOUR story”… It’s always been about Him, and always will be about His story.

    “He who is coming will come and will not delay. But my righteous one will live by faith… But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who BELIEVE and are SAVED.” Hebrews 10:37-39

  88. Angie August 14, 2013 at 11:27 pm #

    “it’s me” made me smile immediately! Thank you for being such a transparent woman of God. Thank you for your inspiration, encouragement, honesty and support to each of us who know you.
    Psalm 139:14
    I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made, your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
    Praising and thanking Him for making you and bring you into my life!
    Love you and your family.

    I keep reading your last email to me….knowing you are so right! Thank you:)

  89. Shelby Elyse Taylor August 15, 2013 at 12:24 am #

    so inspired by your courage, and the beautiful way you have handled this Allie. & Adam too!
    praying with everyone else for a miracle. i heard once that “impossible odds set the stage for amazing miracles.” and i believe it to be so true.
    the taylor family loves you!

    Love,

    Shelby

  90. Jean August 15, 2013 at 7:53 am #

    Allie,

    You amaze me with your daily strength and faith. You truly have been an inspiration to me and so many others!
    I continue to pray for a miracle for you and your family.

  91. Gretchen Brummel August 15, 2013 at 9:31 am #

    Sending love and peace from Pennsylvania.

  92. DeAnn Meade August 15, 2013 at 10:26 am #

    Allie and family,

    I don’t even know you, but on some levels I feel like I do. I heard of you and your story from a mutual friend on fb. I began following your blog and praying for you months ago. I too, echo the many sentiments of those who know and love you – what an amazing woman of the Lord!

    I have 3 young daughters as well, and my heart melts as yours does for yours. Your cheerful heart, gracious smile and amazing faith has been and continues to be such an encouragement to me. I pray you through this mountain in your life, and pray unceasingly for the miracle that God CAN do.

    May you feel wrapped in His love, and warmed by His peace.

    Your sister in Christ,
    DeAnn

  93. Rose Marsh (Dirker) August 15, 2013 at 10:10 pm #

    Allie,
    God bless you and your family. You are such an amazingly beautiful person inside and out. I continue to pray for you and your family. I know I am not alone when I say you have left an imprint in my heart and I adore you!!! My wonderful singing buddy:)

  94. Brian and Jaime Zilverberg August 15, 2013 at 11:00 pm #

    Allie,
    You are truly amazing. Your strength and devotion is admirable. While we didn’t spend much time together when you lived in Colorado I cannot help but feel a connection to you and your family. You and Adam were married on the exact same day as Brian and I, Adam played an intergral role in the job Brian has now, and you and our son share a birthday! We will continue to pray for a miracle but more over pray that you get the time you need so you, your beautiful girls and Adam can find some peace. Your story inspires and will always inspire people to live for God.
    Love,
    The Zilverberg Family

  95. Jeananne Siegferth August 15, 2013 at 11:15 pm #

    Dear Allie,
    We think about you with such love and offer prayers for you and your family daily. You have always touched our lives in so many positive ways. I reflect on the many wonderful memories we all have shared over the years. Your smile, playfulness, sense of humor and deep faith in God has left an imprint on our hearts. Allie, we love you, honey.
    May God protect and bless you and your beautiful family. Love, Jeananne & Joe
    “Oh Sacred Heart of Jesus…I place all my trust in You.”

  96. Annie McCarthy August 16, 2013 at 12:12 am #

    Sweet Allie -

    I’m praying for you and thinking of you constantly. Praying for your beautiful family, for your peace of mind, and for a miracle.

    Your strength and grace make a lasting impression – I met you at a young age and ever since, I’ve admired and looked up to you in so many ways. Your faith and inspiration have only grown throughout this journey, and it is truly a privilege to know you and your story. Sending all my love.

    Annie

  97. Dianna Knapp August 16, 2013 at 8:05 am #

    Allie,
    Though we have not had the pleasure of meeting I feel like I’ve really gotten to know your heart through this journey. I have all the emotions of knowing you intimately as I’ve shed many tears, my heart has ached, I’ve prayed for you and your family….I’ve prayed for your mom as I too am the mother of a daughter your age with three children. I was praying for you this morning and praising God with this song:

    Healing Is In Your Hands

    No mountain, no valley
    No gain or loss we know
    Could keep us from Your love

    No sickness, no secret
    No chain is strong enough
    To keep us from Your love
    To keep us from Your love

    How high? How wide?
    No matter where I am
    Healing is in Your hands

    How deep? How strong?
    Now by Your grace I stand
    Healing is in Your hands

    Our present, our future
    Our past is in Your hands
    We’re covered by Your blood
    We’re covered by Your blood

    How high? How wide?
    No matter where I am
    Healing is in Your hands

    How deep? How strong?
    Now by Your grace I stand
    Healing is in Your hands

    Sing this in faith
    In all things we know that
    We are more than conquerors
    You keep us by Your love
    Sing it out in all things

    In all things we know that
    We are more than conquerors
    You keep us by Your love
    You keep us by Your love

    How high? How wide? Oh, Lord
    No matter where I am
    Healing is in Your hands

    How deep? How deep is Your love?
    How strong? How strong is Your love?
    Now by Your grace I stand
    Healing is in Your hands

    We know, ultimately, the healing is in God’s hands and we know that that healing could be either here on earth or in heaven with our Savior. I am, confidently and boldly, praying to God for a miracle.
    Thank you for showing me how to draw on God’s strength and power. It is so evident that you desire to do God’s will. You are an incredible disciple for our Lord.

    Praying continually…

    Your Sister in Christ,
    Dianna

  98. Meghan Johnson (Swejk) August 16, 2013 at 9:29 am #

    Dear Allison,
    I have been following your blog and journey for a long time. Sorry for the way things are working out. You have turned your journey into such an inspiration and testimony to so many people. How amazing you truly are. Thank you. I just want to tell you how beautiful your children are and I wish we would have stayed in touch. Best of luck with everything. My prayers are with you always.
    Love, Meghan

  99. Lindsey Ritsema August 16, 2013 at 9:45 am #

    Allie and Adam,

    There are just not words, just tears. My heart is broken for your family!!! You have fought and continue to fight with such courage and resolve. I am praying for sweet and rich memories as a family, that you can feel the closeness of each other and for strength to be present.

    Thank you for being real with your feelings…for knowing your hope is secure in Jesus, but knowing that you love for each other and your kids is very real and cherished. I continue to pray for hope, peace, endurance, and strength!!! Here is a song that became my anthem during my cancer journey. I hope it brings you both comfort.

    http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=XD0cvWImVjA

    Love,
    Lindsey

  100. megan williams August 16, 2013 at 3:02 pm #

    I think about you daily. I hope you are able to soak in all this special time with your loved ones. You are a beautiful woman in so many ways. Thank you for having such courage and strength through this journey. I wish it wasnt a journey you went through but you did it with such grace. So many people love you…..

  101. Jen Alvarez August 16, 2013 at 5:03 pm #

    Allie,

    I only wish I could write something so profound that it would bless you the way you have blessed me. But certainly my attempt would fall short. I am so grateful to have met you that first bootcamp day in Hudson, even though i could barely walk for days afterwards. BTW You may be the only one in the whole world who counts down to ZERO. It was your brilliant way to get us to do more reps. :) You have inspired me to grow deeper in my walk with God and to rest in His ultimate providence over us. I love you dearly Allie. I am still praying for a miracle. Make memories with your closest ones.
    With Much Love,
    Jen

  102. Tom Price August 16, 2013 at 10:01 pm #

    A great friendship began at Taylor orientation. One student at orientation from “the south” meets a “buckeye” and an immediate friendship developed and continues to today and will not stop, ever. As parents of the southern girl we were so blessed to see our daughter with such a fine, sweet gal named Allie. and it just got better when we met Tana and Mike.

    By grace we are saved, into a new kingdom that is in but not of this world. This new kingdom does not end, ever. Friendships made in this kingdom may be momentarily interrupted but never lost. God has a grip on us that does not let go, ever. We are not ready to say goodbye even for a moment, not now, not yet so we pray for that miracle now, right now.
    Psalm 34:19 Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the LORD delivers him out of them all.
    We love you and are praying for His deliverance, Tom & Carol

  103. Denise Powers Fabian August 16, 2013 at 10:31 pm #

    I am friends with your Aunt Sue and my daughter took piano lessons from your mother. The greatest demonstration of your faith and trust in your Saviour is letting go and putting it ALL in His hands. My mother died on August 1 and this was one of her favorite songs…especially the last verse:

    If we could see, if we could know
    We often say,
    But God, in love, doth throw a veil
    Across the way,
    We cannot see what lies before
    And so we cling to Him the more
    He leads us til this life is o’er
    Trust and obey.

    Holding you, your husband, your children, your parents, and your extended family close in thought and prayers.

  104. Kellie Lutito August 19, 2013 at 4:57 pm #

    Allie, I am a close friend of Emily’s in Nashville. I’ve been so inspired by your strength and your immense love for the Lord. Your journey and the way you’re fighting and trusting God for each day has a reach even further than you could imagine. Nashville is praying for you :) !!

  105. A Sister in God August 19, 2013 at 11:50 pm #

    I just thought you should know that ever since I heard about your story, I’ve prayed for you daily, sometimes even multiple times daily. Your inspirational story constantly touches my heart. I hope and pray for a miracle to bless you and your family. You have a strong and beautiful spirit. Through God, anything is possible. Bless!

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