22 Mar

To be honest when I received this letter I didn’t recall all that happened. I know I hungered to become more like Him in my “normal” wife, mom, personal trainer, friend roles. I longed for more of Him. I see I am finding Him. Blessed by someone in the outside looking in willing to share.

On a another note John, you know my old man friend, from Cleveland. he celebrated day 100! Praise God that He has given Him new life. much love and continued prayers to my friends!


Do you remember last year, the week before you were diagnosed that you and I had dinner together? You shared your heart with me that you were praying God would do whatever it took to draw you near to Him. That you were willing to do anything to be radically changed and to love Him more completely and surrender more completely. You told me you felt like God was going to do something big in your life. It’s amazing to me to think back to then with all that has happened this year. Little did you know that leukemia was growing inside you. Little did you know what He would choose to answer your prayers. I know that you meant that prayer then, and I know that you still desire that now. I know that you want to fight and be here for Adam and for the girls, but I also know you would not take back that prayer.

I have never ever known anyone to be more refined by the fire of His love than you. He has used this suffering to burn out all of the impurities in you. He has refined you to something truly beautiful and radiant. Time after time people who don’t even know you tell me how amazing you are, and I agree with them. You are amazing, not because of who you are on your own, but because of who you have allowed Christ to transform you into. You radiate Jesus. You are infected, not just with leukemia, but with the most amazing hope. The light of Christ in you is breaking into some very dark hearts. What is in you is contagious.

Thank you for your example. Not just now, either. Thank you for the example you have been to me all of our lives. It has been a joy watching the good work that was started in you so long ago being carried out until completion. I have seen you transformed. I have seen you change and become more and more like our Savior. Thank you for being the most consistent friend I have ever had. Thank you for the times you have encouraged me, corrected me, prayed for me, forgiven me, and loved me. Thank you for the impact you have had on my life. I am so grateful for you. There are a few people in life who truly help to shape who we are, and in my life you are one of them. You were with me during one of my hardest years of life when we were at Taylor. You helped me through the time when I was learning how to make my faith my own. I’m grateful you were further on in that process than I, because I don’t know how much longer it would have taken me to take ownership of my faith if it weren’t for you.

You remind me that God is the same and His love doesn’t change based on our circumstances. Don’t get me wrong, I hate these circumstances. I hate that this is the journey that He has laid out for you. I am not happy that this is how He has chosen to answer your prayer for surrender, but you remind me that He is sovereign. You remind me that He loves us with an everlasting love, and that when all of the pieces are broken and there is nothing we can do to put them back together, that He is still worthy of our praise. My life will not be the same without you, and it is not the same because of you. I love you faithful friend, you are so precious to me.
I Peter 3:3-9
Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! According to his great mercy, he has caused us to be born again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, to an inheritance that is imperishable, undefiled, and unfading, kept in heaven for you, who by God’s power are being guarded through faith for a salvation ready to be revealed in the last time. In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith—more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire—may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ. Though you have not seen him, you love him. Though you do not now see him, you believe in him and rejoice with joy that is inexpressible and filled with glory, obtaining the outcome of your faith, the salvation of your souls.
This passage absolutely describes you. You show us your living hope. You are grieved by various trials, and your testing has proved your faith to be so genuine. Your life is living praise and glory and honor to Jesus Christ.

Please know I am praying for you. My heart is grieved, but I am in constant prayer for you.


10 Responses to “Reminders”

  1. Kendall March 23, 2013 at 5:27 am #

    Well said Beth. You are quite amazing Allie and you let everyone know He is the reason. Love you dear friend and hate these trials, too. Thankful so much for you.

  2. Cristina March 23, 2013 at 5:44 am #

    Agreed!! :) You are loved by many!

  3. Tera March 23, 2013 at 7:20 am #

    Very well said Beth. She is truly an amazing women. Anyone whose life she has entered has been touched. She is an amazing mother, daughter, friend and believer in our God and Father. Many many many people love her dearly. Prayers…….dear neighbor and friend.

  4. Aunt Sue March 23, 2013 at 7:39 am #


  5. Lee Ann March 23, 2013 at 7:47 am #

    I taught a Bible club last night and I asked the kids what it was in life they wanted. Then I shared with them about what Jesus didn’t want. He asked with agony, tears mixed with blood, for His father to take away the cross. I remember once going to my dad’s house and he didn’t respond when I walked in the house. He was asleep so I woke him up and waited in the living room. He came in and said he was so glad I woke him up he was reliving the horror of war. My dad’s pillow was literally drenched with sweat. To the point it could be wrung out and it dripped. One man’s memories and that much suffering. I asked the children again to think about something they wanted. Perhaps someone who was sick and they wanted them to get better, maybe someone they loved was in jail and they wanted them to get out. Maybe I said, “to hear someone say I love you” I told them how Jesus did. I am feel teary now thinking of the pain in eyes so young. Jesus despised the shame of what He endured. I wish you could’ve heard these kids from many backgrounds and cultures singing and dancing with all their hearts and some I think though tears of their own, “His love never fails it never gives up it never runs out on me” I am praying for you and thank you for sharing this intimate letter.

  6. Tina Wilson March 23, 2013 at 2:31 pm #

    Wow Allie, what a beautiful reflection on you by your friend, Beth! It’s true that you have and continue to touch many lives. I have said many times through these circumstances, “I want my faith to be that strong.” You are an inspiration. My Savior Lives, My Savior Loves, My Savior’s always there for me…..

  7. Shelly Vaughn March 23, 2013 at 5:46 pm #

    Thank you for sharing this with us. Beth has a beautiful way with words… her description of you is perfect. You are both wise, beautiful women!

  8. David beemer March 24, 2013 at 4:41 pm #

    What a great testament to the impact that Allie has had on a number of people in her life. It has been an honor to have gotten to know her over the past thirteen years.

  9. ace rocke March 24, 2013 at 8:48 pm #

    What a testimony of the strength of your faith, Allie!
    Beth also is testimony of her maturing, courageous, confident faith in the Living God.

  10. Tracey March 24, 2013 at 10:56 pm #

    Wow. Just wow. Very well put, Beth. Thank you for sharing!

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