1 Nov

Missing Toots

As Allie’s dad I need to say this up front and early I/we miss Allie so much and the pain of her loss is real and takes our breath away. Yes, we believe and understand that Allie is home and in good hands, but we are left with a large hole in our hearts with her gone. We have come to better understand Psalm 46:1( “God is our refuge and strength, A very present help in trouble.”) in a way as never before. We sensed His presence in and during the memorial service big time and know that none of us would have been able to do that in our own strength. We are now calling on Him as we look to the days ahead without our Toots. We are asked to live by faith, and we do that, but with broken hearts.

Recent blog entries have recounted memories of Allie which has triggered a flood of our own memories which we will share with our three girly- girls (Paige, Hayleigh, and Mollie) along the path of life. We think of our family ski trips and Allie learning to ski from Uda (the instructor from hell), our 28 yrs. (began when Allie was 4) enjoying the Owls Nest on the shores of Lake MI. with extended family and friends. The many travel basketball and soft ball games along with cheap and not so good motels. Apple picking in the fall was something she just loved and a tradition she and Adam carried on with the girls. Christmas was Allie’s favorite time of year, she loved all the family traditions including serving the homeless at the Haven of Rest on Christmas day. We started that when she was 5 and she always made every effort to be home on Christmas so she could serve. Mom and Allie loved to work in the kitchen on Sundays after church fixing a brunch trying all kinds of new recipes. We will always treasure our memories of Allie and the joy and encouragement she brought to us and those she came in contact with.

I can hear her voice often “how are you doing today dad, I love you, did you have a good day.” “How are you doing in your walk with the Lord today dad?” Maybe as you go about your day you might hear her voice from time to time asking “how are you doing in you walk with the Lord”, if you do be sure and give her an answer.

We would like to take this opportunity to thank each of you who surrounded Allie and our family during this difficult journey. As parents we were amazed as we watched the various ways many of you reached out to the Armstrong’s and us with practical help, encouraging visits and words, housing in Houston at no cost, plane tickets, cars to us and so many other ways. The medical staff at Akron General, The Cleveland Clinic, and MD Anderson provided Allie with all the tender loving care one could ask for. From our hearts to yours thank you so much.

To our three sweet peas, your mother loved you so much and loved being your mommy. Know that she fought with every fiber of her being to live so she could watch you grow into your own special person. We all asked the Lord many times to allow time with you and in His wisdom He chose to take her home with Him. We do not pretend to understand, but we do know for sure the love she had for you, may you never forget that.

Although much of what is written is from both of our hearts, Tana wants to also complete her own entry, it has been difficult for her to do that but I know you will be blessed once she is able to put her thoughts on the blog. Once again to the many who walked this journey with us thank you for your thoughts, prayers, and support it meant a great deal to the Kura/Armstrong family. May the Lord continue to help us all walk the trail of life in a way that brings honor to Him.

PaPa K



14 Responses to “Toots”

  1. Aunt Sue November 1, 2013 at 1:34 pm #

    Michael, this is beautiful. I see how deeply you hurt. Your sadness is real and overwhelming. I have been so proud of you through much of this journey. You led your family with class and dignity. You have loved on Allie in a way that she knew, with no doubts, just how much you loved her. You have supported Adam and the girls above and beyond and they know how much you love them. I am so incredibly sad that you and Tana have to walk this path. Please know how much I love you both and am praying for you.

  2. megan williams November 1, 2013 at 5:51 pm #

    How a parent copes with losing a child is unimaginable! How one copes with losing someone like Allison Armstrong is something that can’t be put into words. She was beyond amazing, her strength, courage and dignity is something that should be lived by from everyone.
    You both raised a exceptional, beautiful, woman who will never be forgotten!

  3. Tera November 1, 2013 at 9:27 pm #

    Mr. Kura
    Thank you for you words. As a parent I can’t begin to imagine the feelings a parent goes through watching a child suffer. Your toots was an amazing young lady. She was my neighbor for less time than I ever thought she would be… I was so looking forward to walking live milestones together with her since our kids were the same age and my heart either aches from sadness or excitement depending on the memory or thought that is on my mind.. What a true blessing she was to so many!!!!!!
    Love you all

  4. Shirley Kiernan November 2, 2013 at 11:24 am #

    Mr. Kura,

    Although my training with Allie was too short, she left an impact that will last a lifetime. I remain so impressed with you, your wife, and Adam in the strength you have shown, your sharing of your faith and your pain. Thank you for allowing us to read these words.

  5. Angie November 2, 2013 at 12:42 pm #

    I’ve heard Allie’s voice and encouraging words a lot the last few weeks. I printed out her last email of scriptures to me and have them on my nightstand. She hears your words to her too! I can’t imagine the pain and sorrows you are dealing with on a daily basis. Know that the Kura/Armstrongs are in my thoughts and prayers on a regular basis. Thank you for your example of an amazing man of God.

  6. Katie Truax November 3, 2013 at 3:15 pm #

    Dear Mike and Tana, Not a day goes by that I don’t stop and pray for you, your family, and Adam and the girlie girls. I pray that you know He is holding you, helping you, and fighting for you as you endure every day.

  7. Vicki Rhodes November 3, 2013 at 9:35 pm #

    So many times as I have prayed for Allie, Adam, and the girls through this journey I have thought of you and Tana. I cannot imagine the pain of losing a child and I want you to know that many times I have lifted you to our Father who understands that pain and walks through it with you. May He continue to hold both of you in His hand.

  8. Jodi Tucker November 3, 2013 at 10:51 pm #

    Thank you for sharing about Allie from your heart. Thank you for mirroring the love of the Father for His child. May Paige, Haleigh, and Mollie know the love that their mom had for them through the many words shared here and in past blog posts. May they fully realize the love their mom had for her Lord. Again, thank you for sharing and I continue to pray for Armstrongs and Kuras that He would be your refuge and strength.

  9. Marcia Case November 4, 2013 at 5:02 pm #

    Beautiful Mike. Praying for everyone in the Kura/Armstrong Family.

  10. Jill November 5, 2013 at 11:50 pm #

    Thank you Mike for sharing a piece of your heart with us. We continue to pray for your family and for Adam and the girls.

  11. Ellen Armstrong November 7, 2013 at 12:39 pm #

    Mike, your message is very meaningful. We love you and our thoughts and prayers are with you & Tana.
    Allie was & is an inspiration to all who knew her and followed her blog. I will never forget her!
    Her strong faith in the Lord will be with me as I go forward into another trial of faith for my brother Warren.
    Yours in Christ,

  12. Lesa and family November 14, 2013 at 10:50 pm #

    Allie loved you both so much.

  13. Ginger Swansinger November 16, 2013 at 10:15 am #

    Mike and Tana,
    I have a daughter Allie’s age and I hurt so much for you. I am continuing to think of you both, Adam and the girls and lift you up in prayer.

  14. Rebecca Trego December 4, 2013 at 6:37 pm #

    Mike, thank you so much for sharing your thoughts. It brings tears to my eyes to read and know that you and Tana and Adam and the girls and the whole extended family are in my prayers so very often. When I read about your gratitude for all the people who have walked with y’all in this journey, it’s so clear where Allie got her love for and deep appreciation of people…you and Tana raised her to love and appreciate others well. Sending you love from Colorado…

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