22 Oct

Every once in awhile I force myself to remember and reflect on my emotions just six months ago. It’s easy to plow forward and try to forget. I realize that the process is a major part of being changed through the fire. It’s hard to recall the thoughts and emotions of such a rapid change of plans. I mostly remember embracing the reality. If you know me well, I am practical, and though nothing about this journey seemed practical, it actually was the most practical set up for me. The plans were laid out for me. I had to trust and follow.

I reference my remembering, because I feel like I am experiencing a whole new bald revealing. I am no longer bald, but I am sporting a very short and “fresh” do. I am not a fan, yet I embrace that there is less need of a scarf. I am grateful for hair, although the speediness and ease of being bald was very helpful. It is strange yet exciting that the hair loss part of the process is part of my past. I pray an encounter I might not meet again. I remember through people how those days were. I remember thinking maybe my hair won’t fall out… Maybe I am one of the lucky ones. I remember showering as I continually was rinsing my hair in the drain thinking surely I am bald now and getting out to see my reflection with still loads of hair. I remember wondering if God knew how many hairs I had even when they were falling out. The song that ran through my head as it fell out in the shower was one about making things beautiful. This was hard to imagine at the time.

Today I look back and realize these parts of the journey have a purpose. As I now walk unveiled I choose to embrace my new style and look forward to new looks. I am thankful for hair and for life.

2 Responses to “Unveiled”

  1. Lyndsey October 23, 2012 at 7:52 am #

    I think you look great without your scarfs. Maybe it’s time to have some fun like temporary coloring your hair bright blue or something

  2. Aunt Sue October 23, 2012 at 8:03 am #

    I DO remember you saying that maybe your hair wouldn’t fall out. And I think one of my favorite pictures from Ryan’s wedding is the one of you and your siblings/spouses where you are holding your wig in your hand! Priceless.

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